Well this is it. I have not been what I would consider thin for years now and I miss it - I miss feeling good about myself and I miss looking good. I miss feeling light and empty. I don't want to feel heavy and sluggish anymore. There is no doubt about it, I look MUCH better thinner and when I look good I feel good. In the last, say 8 years, I have been very thin, just thin, normal, a bit overweight and very overweight. Right now I consider myself to be a bit overweight. I am about 9st7lbs and approximately 5'6". Today I start my journey to thin. I don't want to be average, I want to be thin, very thin.
I am giving myself 6 weeks to become thin - that is going to mean extreme dieting and a lot of exercise but I will do it. I think I need to be aiming for about 500 - 700 calories per day but will just see how it goes and change throughout as appropriate. Obviously the lower the better. I love road running (so great - I can do it anywhere, anytime!) so I will be doing plenty of that as well as stuff in the gym.
Today I even wore flat shoes to work - that must sound ridiculous but it is quite a big deal for me. I always wear heals because they make me look thinner but today I want people to see me as I really am because in 6 weeks time I won't look like this anymore, I'll be thin.
